Shot day folks. I was alright until we turned on the road toward the c center. Got there early and they took me right away. Made the nurses laugh with my chicken shit t shirt. Got to wear it every shot day. I got more great news. ALL my vitals are normal. Even my blood pressure. 122/40 or something like that. I can even stop the nasty potassium pills. Nurse said all the nurses made the comment that the husband was so kind to rub my feet yesterday while I was getting chemo. They said they never saw that before. They let me go into a private exam room to get the dreaded shot. Once again I didn’t handle it well. I guess I never will but you know what. That’s OK. I don’t care what anyone thinks about it. It’s my thing and that’s THAT. Did I cry? Hell YES. Do I still hate it. YES I DO. Went to eat afterward at a China Buffet. It wasn’t any good. But I feel really GREAT. EVERYTHING is going really well. I’m getting all good news. The lump on my side has shrunk so much it is now the size of a small bruise. If chemo is working there I was told it is also working on the inside stuff. Maybe no surgery. All is good. Modeled all my scarves and yes even the wig for the husband who said I looked good. He even likes the short hair and I am rockin it and lovin it. Always looked at pictures of short hair but thought I was too ugly to ever wear my hair like that. Hey I grew up. I don’t give a damn what anyone thinks. I am now happy in my own skin. Probably more on that topic later. Have to take the wig to get the bangs trimmed. Will do one day. I like the scarf look too. I am really alright with all that is going on. This journal is really helping. It is making me take a look at my life from way back as far as I can remember and I am able to put together how I got to where I am today. Sort of like coming to terms with your life. It is all a freedom and a confession to oneself and one’s God and just making one’s life more real. I don’t know if that make sense to any of you but it does to me. I don’t know how long I have to live. Believe me though I have absolutely no plans on going anywhere anytime soon like I said before but for once I am lovin myself and lovin life and letting my life be what it is and I don’t give a damn what anyone thinks about me. Love to my amazing family who are being so supportive. Love to my amazing co-workers who are praying for me. Guys your prayers are WORKING. Thank you all.