I don’t know how to start this. My first time and I thought I would say hello and explain myself.
I am 26. Solo mum. And frankly I have been feeling pretty down at the moment.
I don’t complain about my life. I have it pretty good. I have a roof of my head. Over my kids heads. Food on the tables.
But I still feel like I am missing something.
Everyone else has love and I don’t have love. I want it.
I thought I had it in the past. But sadly they were really big toads that sucked some of my soul out. Do you know how hard it is to recover from someone sucking some of your soul. It affects everything about yourself.
I have tried dating sites. And they frankly suck hard out. All the people I have met all just want sex. And honestly I don’t want sex. I love sex. But I don’t want to do it with someone that doesn’t care about me. I don’t want to feel used and useless. But that’s how it makes me feel.
Why is it so hard to find someone love me. I don’t like been alone. But that’s not the point. I don’t know what the point is anymore.
but all I do know is I am going spend the time in this journal every night to explain my walk along trying to find love, been a mum and trying to make something of my life
so all I have to say is it not too late to bring on 2016.