Got into another argument with my mom today. No, it’s not because I hate her but it’s because I wanted to tell her how much I love her. I love my parents, and I feel lucky since I know not everyone gets a pair of loving parents. But to be honest, she told me that I would play games over her. Oh, boy how much she’s wrong. If only I had all day to talk to them. I would tell them how much I would really feel. All the pains and strains, believing one day I would not see them come from work. I miss them to be honest. I hate being alone for so long. Being alone for 9 hours everyday, sometimes even more. All this time makes you think. It truly hurts when someone you love says you don’t love them. I know I’m not the only one who feels this way, but.. It just hurts. I feel a little part of my heart crack whenever I hear that sentence. It sucks. Really. It does suck. Anyways, enough of my emotions. To be honest, I didn’t know how to respond to it. Should I be sad? Should I be mad? Is it weird for a son to be feeling this way? I’m already 18 and I know she’s not too far from a control-freak.. But… She’s my mom. She chose to have me even if it led to a C-section(Sorry if I spelled it wrong). She’s very strict and stubborn, but she’s someone I care about. I worry sometimes. Heck.. Ah, screw it. Hell… I don’t think she’ll remember saying it tomorrow while it echoes through my head for months. Why do you think I would choose something temporary over you? Does it look like I hate you? …. I’m sorry.
- A very depressed guy, Kanuke