I love him so much…i wish i could i could erase my mind and start over. Things just aren’t the same anymore and i hate that when i look at him i feel hate. I’ve been living in denial for so long its time i stop and just focus on myself. i keep trying to tell myself if i know that the relationship is toxic why stay? If he makes me hate myself sometimes why stay? I don’t want a boyfriend who’s just going to add on to my anxiety and make me feel worse than i already do…with that being said why the fuck do i stay and put myself in these positions..