This is my first entry so here goes. This will be filled with grammatical errors, don’t worry about it. At the time I’m writing this I am 17 years old still a virgin by choice because I’m not sure if I am even interested in the opposite, let alone the same sex. No one will read this so all my dark secrets will come here, like the fact that I dated a girl for 2 months then lied about a serious medical condition just to not see her, or the fact that I’ve actually attempted suicide and none of the people i live with know about it. I don’t try because the thought that if I tried and Failed it would be to much to bare. I lie to everyone I meet because i don’t like the real me how can i expect others to. I once told a girl i was in love with her just because she thought i was and i didn’t want to disappoint her i am a black 6’1 teenage boy who still cries on a regular basis. My entire family is homophobic and i don’t think they would accept the fact that i don’t like boys or girls and i resent them for it. I have gotten so good at faking a smile i was voted best smile my senior year even though this is the most depressing year of my life.
I am lost and I don’t know what to do