I guess this is more about yesterday than today…or about both. Yesterday was just so hard for me. I didn’t do any OT and I came in late, took two hours of benefit leave…got to stop that! I was just so damn tired! I need the $$$ from the OT. Again today I did not arrive till 8:30…I am going to work two or three over tonight anyhow…I just have to. Anyhow here I am rambling on in my ADD fashion…yesterday…yesterday was a super rough day for me. And I have no idea why. I just know I was super tired and super sad. And it’s like chicken or egg…I’m sadder when I’m more tired for sure. But am I so fatigued because I’m so sad or is the sadness intensified by the fatigue? Oh who knows and who cares who really? It just is.
BF was super sweet when I got home…asked me if I was okay and I said yeah I was just sad. He took me to dinner at Parky’s and he seemed to really listen to me as I talked yet again about my grief and sorrow. (Seriously I’m a broken record and I don’t like being this way). Went home and watched law and order reruns. I had to chuckle told him I was constantly surrounded by homicide (hell no wonder I’m depressed!) Anyhow got 4 granny squares done and went in to toss and turn for an hour or so before falling asleep. Ah blessed sleep; how I love to sleep!
And here I am at work hours later than I wanted to be. Heard I song on KLove that I love so much it always brings it home and makes me feel better…Blessed be the Name of the Lord.
Well I got PSA statements…I gotta roll. Indeed no matter what BLESSED BE HIS HOLY NAME! Peace friends.