Today I realized something. And I’m not sure what I can do with this realization to better myself as a person. I’m not entirely 100% for recovery, although I feel as if I’ve been making myself believe that for some time. It’s actually quite unsettling. Because I have a lot at stake. If I don’t put my all into my recovery, I will be sitting in prison. No doubt about that.
So now, I sit here wondering what I can do to fully “want” recovery.. to fully put my all into recovery. To make recovery my life.
The consequences of my using suck. Yes, no doubt. But that’s about all I can’t handle with my drug use.