So, I need to focus. I may need to write a list of my daily activities… my own honey do list. I am horrible at routine, I do not know why that is. How is it that you can be so overwhelmed by boredom that you do not do ANYTHING? I can not for the life of me explain what it is I am searching for or waiting to happen. So, today I believe I am going to draw up a schedule so that none of the things I actually want to happen are neglected. This includes writing here…. it has been three days.. Oh gosh, why? I don’t want to stress myself into feeling the failure but I really need to do something about this. I constantly feel like I am missing something kind of like the baby who won’t go to sleep…. I know I have lived a very fast and in depth life… experienced things that many haven’t or won’t in their lifetime…. so why Chelsie, why? And now I just was thrown another thing lol… So I’m off to flourish in the chaos….