Why am I so stupid?

So I send him a text while he’s at work. Have a great night! Love you. He’ll text me back when he gets a minute. Nope. He’ll call me when he gets back. Nope. 

I try to go to sleep earlier than usual, but he doesn’t call. Even in my sleep I notice the phone isn’t ringing, so here I am awake. It’s 1:11am and I’m awake.

Im a grown woman awake because of a man. Sad really. Why can’t I just let it go? If he doesn’t want to be with me why drag it out? Am I not worth the conversation to say Hey this isn’t working out? I don’t let it go because I’ve invested so much into this relationship. I love him. I truly do. I have done nothing wrong. There was no actual fight to initiate this. I don’t want to be the one to give up. Love is worth fighting for right?

Why am I so stupid?

3 thoughts on “Why am I so stupid?”

  1. The way i see it, is that love is worth fighting for when both of you are fighting. One sided fighting is more painful and you may be end up losing the fight, while he will keep on living and move on. I think the best way is to ask calmly how your relationship with him stands. Because you will endup having sleepless nights while he sleeps like a baby.

    I hope i did not offend you or anything. Thats just how i see it. For me honesty is always the best policy and I’ve been in a one sided relationship before. One important thing I have learned is that you can’t force things, not even how badly you want it. I ended up very hurt and actually still am trying to move on.

    I wish you the best with this situation.

  2. No offense taken! I welcome the feedback I think he think we’re good, but I don’t feel like we are and I think it’s his responsibility to make me feel secure. Apparently I’ve done my job if he thinks we’re good

  3. This is the same way I feel with my boyfriend, I think it may be due to the fact how insecure I am about my self. How I think I may not be good enough for anyone and how I constantly feel anxious and try to please him by delving into his interest just so he’ll notice me . I mean he is a great guy constantly reassuring with his affection it’s just really hard when I’m left alone to my thoughts.

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