I’ve haven’t always been the best person. I’ve hurt you time and time again. I’m sorry, I am not sure if you can ever trust me again, and honestly i don’t blame you if you don’t. I said things that should never been said. Things that we’re between me and you alone, private things and it’s inexcusable. I’m just a dumb teenager who never had a girlfriend and a lot of this stuff was new to me. It was exciting, a whole new world of possibilities… a Pandora’s Box. I was excited about it and addicted and hearing everyone talk about it I didn’t want to make it seem I’ve never done stuff, which technically I really hadn’t done much, but nevertheless I talked about it and I shouldn’t have. Now you’re thinking this goes back to what we talked about yesterday and it’s not. I didn’t do it to fit in I did it because this never happened before and to talk about it felt good it showed that I had someone, but it wasn’t until I told you that I realized it was wrong. I’m horrible person Amanda and I have terrible anger issues and it’s something I struggle with. Honestly I don’t know where I’m going with this I’m sorry. Im a fucking terrible person, I cant see I don’t know what im writing. Fuck fuck fuck. You don’t deserve me I just mess everything up and I don’t know. I just need to talk to you its not kik its not that im just a horrible person.