Another night come and gone. Had a nice break and went for dinner with Nancy. Her and I have allot in common these days bringing us even closer. .
Told him this morning that I will be waiting at his place when he gets back from the airport. We definitely need to talk. . I need to know and deserve to know what the future is looking like to him. And he needs to know, I am not poly. I can’t be poly. Will that end of between us? Potentially yes it could. Am I ready for that? Sighs. Yes and no. I love him. He makes me feel special. Like I matter.
I dreamt last night he put a collar on her at the airport. Was it a dream? Or my subconscious knowing it was happening and preparing me. Time will tell I guess. . I miss him so much my life feels so empty. But I also know I’m strong enough to deal worth whatever happens. I hope