I’m making a decision that I think I’ve made at least 5 times by now. But I actually want to follow through with it this time.
I want to get better. I don’t want to be that weak, depressed girl anymore. I’m not near as bad as I used to be, but I’m not quite there yet. And to be honest, most of my “depression” is just loneliness. I don’t hate myself. I haven’t cut in around 3 months. I haven’t been overly upset in a while, either. I’m just lonely. But that’s all going to change. I’m making a conscious decision to seek God and get out of this suffocating cycle.. I’m convinced that God’s the only one that can fix me.
Here goes nothing. . .