I miss you.
I am with someone else and I miss you.
And it makes me sad
and I get pissed off that it makes me sad.
You are not welcome
Get out of my life
I miss your hands
And your hair
And your kisses and hugs
I had a dream about you last night, love.
You were walking ahead of me and I needed to talk to you
I had to make eye contact with you
I craved your voice responding to me and so I called out your name
and I gently touched your shoulder
and vibrations moved through my body and you
turned to face me with your brown eyes with specks of green pulsing through them
and I went to speak and you did not give me time
because as soon as I had inhaled to speak you cupped my face with both of your hands
and you kissed me.
And I wrapped my fingers in your hair and pulled you close
and you wrapped your arms around me and I felt home
because I could feel your tongue playfully fighting with mine
and i could feel your heart thumping against your chest
and I was with you again
and I woke up and cried.
Why are you here still?
I cannot escape you
You are everywhere.
In my school, in my town, in my head, in my dreams, in my heart.
I miss you I miss you I miss you
and I shouldn’t
you don’t deserve my tears or my desires
bbut I give them to you like you own them
You broke my heart even though I ended things.
You’ve broken my soul and I just want myself back.
I want you back.
I want love again.
i am a mess.