I am quiet today.  I learned my daughter is planning to send her son away again.  He was in a residential placement for a year.  He’s only been home 4 months.  I love this grandson so much, both my grandsons.  Jacob is more autistic, so he is easy—just goes off and plays quietly or reads.  Matthew is autistic and also probably bipolar, and he can come unglued at the smallest thing.  But he is not violent.  And he is praying for God to help him with his language.  I feel I can’t bear it if she sends him away.  He saw her with some papers and asked “Why are you trying to get rid of me?”  It broke my heart for him.  But all I can do, and the best thing I can do is pray. This didn’t take God by surprise and He is not devastated.  He may not let it happen.  If He does, there’s a good reason.  I pray, “Thy Kingdom come, Thy will be done in Matthew’s life.”  Then I have to cast my cares on Jesus, for He cares for me and Matthew.  I am sad.  But I will make myself believe that Jesus is Lord, and trust Him only and entirely.  Prayers appreciated very much.

2 thoughts on “Subdued”

  1. Been on vacation just saw this. Oh my…my heart breaks and melts for you and your grandson…and of course your daughter as well. I will pray for all of you my dear.

  2. We are trying to trust God. There may not be any openings available, and things may settle down. Thank you for your kind, caring comment. You just can’t imagine how much it means to me, especially right now. Bless your heart!

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