Today is 5/4/216 and it is currently 10:09 am.
I am …IDK what I am actually.I feel confused.
I realized that I fall for people way to easy,I’d rather sleep than go out with friends,or I’d rather sit around and watch life pass me by then do something active with my life.
I guess I’ve just hit that point in my life where I just am done with everything.Like i don’t feel sad but i guess i act sad.Idk this is why it’s confusing because IDK what i want to do anymore or who i want to be with.I feel like I’m choking,and my brain can’t even process one thought.This is all crazy to me.I feel like I’m stuck and the more i try to move things get worse(like quicksand).I want to get my life together but it’s like my head is a ball of resistance at this point and I’m trying so hard but i don’t think i can come back from this one.I quit i give up I’m exhausted i put way to much time into thinks to get nothing in return and i hate it so much it pisses me off.
People tell me to ask god for help but i don’t trust in god.Here let me put it where you guys understand it.
I believe there is a god but don’t believe the commandments and the things he has done for us i guess.
It’s complicated to explain
I feel like I’m just rambling on and on.
I just want somewhere to go where i can escape all of these thoughts.
Well what should i do