Okay, let me first apologize for yesterday’s blog. That was very unnecessary of me. I didn’t know people still read these things so I didn’t really care what I wrote because it was for my own personal benefit. It turns out that my best friend (emphasis on best) read that and I didn’t think she still did. I feel like I seriously hurt her and I feel like I have been hurting her for a while now. I didn’t mean to hurt her but I was just being arrogant and not really thinking about others. Well I went to go see the play that she was in last night and I brought one of my other friends so I wouldn’t be alone. She did really well but after the play I felt like I would be a bother to her by texting her so I didn’t. I feel bad for that because I should have told her how good she did last night. She was one of the main characters and she absolutely killed her part. The play ended at 10:30 and I went to bed pretty much as soon as I got home. I woke up this morning and I checked my phone and I had an abnormally large amount of notifications. I don’t know why everybody decided to blow up my phone on the night that I decided to go to bed early. As I was scrolling down I noticed Cheyanne texted and I instantly opened it to say good morning and respond to her message. Well the message kind of shocked me because she had read my blog. Let me note again that I didn’t think anyone would read that. She was saying that she is sorry for being a bad friend and I instantly knew that I had messed up (once again). I guess I should point out that I did lie yesterday. She is one of the very few people that are there for me and she is my number one friend. But yesterday I started to think that not even she cares and I was being arrogant when I said that because I need to start taking into consideration of other people’s feelings. She has absolutely worked her butt off the last few weeks and she is beyond tired. The last thing she needs is someone like me who just brings her down. I thought that I was making her happy but I was very wrong. She told me she always thinks I’m mad at her but she couldn’t be anymore wrong. I love her as a best friend with all my heart and I feel bad for making her feel like crap. Yall seriously don’t understand how bad I feel about doing that because looking back at my actions I seriously have realized that all I have done is brought her down. I want to apologize 2 million times to her but I know that saying “I’m sorry” means nothing without actually showing that I’m sorry. So I absolutely need to work on how I treat her and others.
Today has been somewhat weird. I woke up at eleven because I didn’t feel like doing anything and I just wanted to sleep my heart away but I ended up getting up and taking a shower. Almost instantly as I got out I chose to go with my dad to go to one of our friends’ new work place. They just bought a gas station and they are soon to be opening it. I am seriously proud of them because that couple is seriously an amazing Christian couple and they deserve the world. They are a massive reason why my dad enjoys church like he does. The husband can seriously make you laugh. After we left from there I got home and wen to town with my older brother. It was almost a pain in the butt to go with him because he refuses to speak to me and he hates me going places with him but I went anyways because I’m buying a new hammock because my other one is not in the best of shape. We got back and my parents informed me that they are going on a date night with some people from church so they are going to pick us up something to eat before they leave. I told them that I wanted Chinese food and they said yes and that made me happy because one of the best ways to cheer me up is getting me Chinese food.
We are changing our internet today because we just wanted better and faster internet so the people are out today. We are currently waiting on them to come back to our house because they had to leave to mess with our lines. So that’s pretty much that.
Revelation 1:8-“I am the Alpha and the Omega,” says the Lord God, “who is, who was, and who is to come, the Almighty.”
Yall don’t understand how happy it makes me to post this bible verse. This has been my favorite bible verse for over a year or two. It has so much characteristic and meaning behind it. I love this verse so much. It is my go to verse when I’m sad or just need to clear my thoughts. Actually, if any of yall would like to go through an intense and powerful story I would recommend reading through Revelation’s. I would love to create a bible study thing with one of my close friends but that is hard to do because the lack of time and my lack of friends lol.
Well, that is about all for today. I will keep yall updated as I continue with my journey through life.