This is my first online journal, but I’ve been needing some ways to cope with what I’m going through and the struggles I have. So here’s some info on me (without getting too deep into it of course!)
Well, I’m a seventeen year old girl. I have a younger sister and an older brother (who is out of the house). My parents are divorced and have been since I was in the first grade. I currently live with my sister and mother )who was just diagnosed 3 months ago with Kidney cancer as well as Lung Cancer, but they just removed part of the lung recently to get rid of the cancer). My family is all sorts of screwed up. So you will hear me complain a lot about them. But something you will hear me talk about a lot more is my boyfriend. He is 18 years old and is going off to college about 2 hours away in less than 2 months. And boy let me tell you, I am a wreck. It scares the living hell out of me that he is leaving. We have been dating for 14 months (as of tomorrow). He has been my rock all through high school and being a grade below him I know I am going to struggle very hard without him next school year. I am not 100% sure what I’m going to do with myself. I am no longer in any sports, I don’t participate in clubs, I do not have a job, and I am gaining an insane amount of weight because I eat so much when I’m either bored or upset. I have been diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression and have panic attacks often. I don’t show it though. And I definitely don’t brag about it. I am just a girl who wants to hear other people opinions and thoughts on what I have to say and different things in my life. I though this would be a great way to cope with different things! Oh, and since I don’t want to give my full name (safety reasons of course) you all can call me B:) some of my closest friends call me that! I can’t wait to hear from some people and I hope this helps me cope and stuff!!