You left me years ago
you left me because i was foolish and stupid and i played with your heart not knowing that it could result in you leaving me.
I’m left here …still standing but broken ..I’m wounded.
Do you miss me like I miss you?
Fucked around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart too, and
I’m always tired but never of you
If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn’t like that shit
But i guess i deserved it ..right?
If u wanted me you would just say so
And if I were you, I would never let me go
, friends, is all we are now but it doesn’t even feel as if we are friends more like strangers
you are only there for me whenI’m down,i don’t know if that’s good or not but i guess you take what you can get.
i text you late nights until you finally replied with
“Ok look you haven’t and never will go absent in my mind you’ll always be part of my life whether we’re 1 million miles away or shoulder to shoulder I’ll always want you in my life and i never text back idk i just have a bad habit but ill try harder to text back and another thing is i don’t like seeing you doing bad or dumb stuff cause then you make me feel like i failed you but don’t put things like that in you head”
you say these words to me because you think maybe its the right thing to say
i never know what you’re thinking anymore because you shut me out and I don’t mean any harm i just miss you on my arm.i want you and I hate that I love you i don’t want to, but I can’t put nobody else above you and it sucks I’ve tried so hard to move on and no one will ever be like you maybe i should stop looking for you when you aren’t looking for me.
you say you hate when i do dumb things but i have no one else there for me so the only thing si turn to now for comfort is drugs which is sad but this is me and this is how i recovered.
you were my addiction and maybe now it’s time to walk away even though i don’t want to but before i do this i want you to tell me how you genuinely feel about me
i need to know because we just ended last time and this time i want to say goodbye but i want to know what I’m saying goodbye to
You ever wonder what we could have been?
You said you wouldn’t and you fucking did
Lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix
Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all fucking mixed
because of you
so tell me what you want before i walk away forever
should i walk away from him?