Thank god for giving me the chance to live until now. There’s still a lot of sins that have to be forgiven. My goals now just to be a better person tomorrow and the day after and forever. Life is hard but I guess what else I can do? Suicide? Stupid things to do. But there something I want to ask, what should I do to push away my anxiety or nervous feelings? I always have those feelings and I hate it. I hope I can make it gone away.