Tonight I go to sleep depressed trying not to cry holding a pillow wishing it was summertime next to me thinking about my friends wedding in a few days. I known her for about 5 years. I have feelings for her about every time I try she is with someone else or she brings up that she’s happy with our relationship and dont want to ruin it if we bake up. I have a feeling she kinda have feelings for me just how she act with me and talks to me not like a friend would. she worrys about me if I get sick or something happens to me and I do the same. we hang out more then her fiancé me her and him do hang sometimes. not as much as me and her I asked her couple times if she is making the right choice but she kinda avoided the answer. Well that’s it for tonight night and talk more tomorrow.