Failure. Knowing I can’t embrace or enjoy life without man-made medications. I crave a time when I feel balanced and at peace with my life. When I have self-esteem.
I’m surrounded by people who care yet I’m so alone.
I let out the severe demons that cover my eyes from all that is light yesterday. It did feel better to say it out loud, to be honest, not to hide it.
I am drowsy. The side effects will wear off. It’s hard to admit I’m powerless over the demons in my mind, but I am. They make me a person I don’t want to be. Someone I don’t like. They erase hope, love and energy.