Losing Myself

If you consider yourself a tad bit different from other people, then maybe you can see where I’m coming from. If not, then maybe the problem is with me.

Tbh, I love and want getting attention from people but on the other hand, I hate when the spotlight’s on me. Make sense? No? Me neither. Since you’re bunch of strangers, I can be entirely truthful and say the ugly truth about myself.

I’m just going to put it out there, I think I lost myself. I wear this mask everyday for as long as I can remember that it consumed me. I try to become this perfect little girl.

I get high grades.

Never had a boyfriend cause my parents doesn’t want me to.

Act all kind, friendly, humble to my friends.

Be a daughter that my mom and dad want me to be.

Rarely go out and have fun.

I’m so scared about being judge by society that I feel the need to be these things. The problem is, is this really me? I really hope so because if it’s not, then I might regret it someday. I know that you shouldn’t care about what people say about you as long as you know that’s who you are.

The question is, how do you do that?

4 thoughts on “Losing Myself”

  1. I am sorry you’re damaged. But I do not think you are weird, dear. You are trying to be the person people want you to be. But does that make you really conflicted? You probably love your parents and they love you. It’s perfectly NORMAL to be confused about your identity at your age. Always remember you are a beloved child of God, and go from there. Blessings!

  2. I’ve been there. You got a big goal that’s worth a focus. I remembered my parents told me … If I enjoy too much, wasting my time and focusing on the fun things very early, then I’ll be sorry later.

  3. I really appreciate your opinions, thanks so much! God bless 🙂

  4. Hi Wednesday! I actually can relate to this a bit, believe it or not. There is nothing wrong with you. Just know that. Maybe that is the real you. But if it was maybe you wouldn’t be confused about it? I don’t know. Anyways just hang in there!

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