Do you ever wonder about the bigger things in life? (This is gonna be rather philosophical and rant-like, just by the way).
I mean, what even is the purpose of life? What’s the point? Some people live for money, others for love, others for happiness, others for thrill… But in the end, what’s the point? I wonder about that often, wondering what our purpose is in this big, bright world. And, in the end, I think that purpose…
Is whatever you want it to be. Your purpose is whatever you choose. ‘Cause that’s what it comes down to: the meaning of life is to find a meaning that doesn’t leave you broken. We’re all broken in some way, shape, or form. Even the most spotless of vases have a crack inside. I have many mistakes, I won’t lie. That’s a simple fact. And as for my meaning? I’m not sure.
I think my purpose, my meaning, is to make others happy. I guess I’m emotionally linked to everyone near me. If they’re happy, I’m happy. If they’re sad… Well, I’m sure you can guess. I don’t like being sad. I mean, no one does. But I’m scared of being sad. When I’m sad, it’s a slippery slope to being extraordinarily glass “half empty”. It scares me to think of how quickly I can fall.
But I try to be strong! And I think I am. I hope so. I have to be strong, because not everyone else can. Everyone needs someone in their life to depend on. To give someone that opportunity, it’s beautiful. Why is it that we try to take the opportunity at the misfortune of others? People are so selfish sometimes, and it hurts to see when others are hurt because of that selfishness.
Some people don’t mean it, I know. But others… They do without thought. Think without consequence. How can we live in a world where we hurt for fun? Where we punish for pleasure? Answer is, we can’t. We’ll wipe ourselves out just by killing each other. But not many seem to care. That’s the sad part. Who can you trust in a world that only thinks about itself? Some people I don’t think I can trust, but then I realize I can. And others, I think I can trust them, but they’re only in it for themselves. Sometimes, I don’t know who to trust, and that’s truly scary. Who can you trust to be true to themselves? To be true to you?
Sometimes, I don’t know.
This world is scary, you know? But we got to push through. Our lives are short, but there’s so much beauty in it. Too many memories to make and moments to take. Hearts to break and loves to date. So much to do, and yet, we can’t enjoy even ourselves. That’s what really breaks my heart. When people don’t see the beauty in them. I understand why they don’t, all humans doubt themselves. But still, in the end, I wish for a world where people love themselves. Truly.
Where they don’t love things, they love each other. That’s what I want.
Such an impossible goal to achieve, such a difficult dream to live.
But I hope that, someday, we’ll get there.
2nd Song on Playlist: “Maps” by Maroon 5