9th (Falling Apart)

It’s not easy anymore. I do my best to help, but there it goes, crashing down on me again. Why do I even bother? No one appreciates my help. No one cares. I pour my heart and soul out, and no one bothers to say a single nice word about me. I just fail. Always. Always always always.

I’ve given up. I don’t belong here. I don’t belong in that group. I just don’t. I want to be a family with them, but I’ve never really been a part of it, have I? 

I don’t know anymore. I don’t know who cares anymore. 

Does anyone? 

No one. No one does. 

Never. I’m sorry, I should go. I just don’t… I can’t survive this… I’m so scared all the time. All. The. Time.

I’m sorry. I’m so so sorry… I guess Gama isn’t the only one with drama, huh?


I’m so sorry

4th song in the Playlist: “My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark” by FallOutBoy

2 thoughts on “9th (Falling Apart)”

  1. Val…I appreciate you. And everything you do. I’m sorry if I’ve never shown it. I’m always too wrapped up in my own problems, I forget the person who helped me solve them. I know no amount of these words will make you feel any better but just know that I love you and appreciate you.

    You are my flower.

    Don’t stop blooming over a little snow.

  2. Don’t, don’t be sorry for feeling like this, or wanting to give up, even. It’s okay to feel like this, to feel alone, or depressed, or even hopeless–because feeling like this doesn’t mean you ARE alone, or devoid of hope. I know you’ll feel better with some time, and, Val? There are people who care about you, and love you. Trust me, it’s true. Please just, feel better soon. Really.

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