For the sake of others
I didnt bother to think about myself.
Not knowing, i’ve been ignorant of the things that surrounds me.
Things that shouldn’t be left alone.
I feel… alone.
But they didn’t bother.
But they were somehow right
Outside I look like I dont care about everything…
But inside its the opposite…
They all think it doesnt hurt me.. even a bit.
But it hurts me a lot.
Maybe this is why… they dont trust me about things?
I cant help thinking that I am their friend in name only…
Because everytime something happen… i am always the last one to know…
Always feeling dumb.
It really hurts when your bestest bestfriend told you that she’ll stay away from you. Even if she needed space or time just to get over something… dont you think it is unfair to do that? I mean.. she told me that she’ll distance herself with me and then if she’s ready enough and the wound in her heart heals then she’ll go back to me and we’ll continue being bestfriends.
I am her best friend… yet she hides so many things from me…. I know I cant know everything but… it hurts not being able to be reliable enough.