I hope they are both having a great time. Matthew was feeling so bad before they left. But they separated from their mom just fine. This is just a little taste of how it will be if Matthew goes to a facility to live. I miss him so much, and I will see him on Saturday! I hope he will be calm. Sometimes some little thing upsets him (usually something he is mad at himself for) and he kicks walls and door and splits the wood in the door and screams for 45 minutes. Then he will dissolve in tears and remorse and sob “I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry.” It’s like he’s tormented. I ache for him. He is 15 years old. I hold him when he will let me and comfort him and assure him “it’s allright.” I don’t know why I’m writing this, I’ve written so much similar stuff before. Of course, it is on my mind, so I guess that’s why I write it.