And i’m gone again

This has gotten so hard for me. I can’t write like I used to and I don’t know why. My mind flows so fast and I have all these really funny stories that I can tell but I can’t find myself actually telling you guys. In all honesty I have told too many people about this site. I have told too many people that I write and I feel like that is a major reason why I haven’t been writing like I used to. Some people know too much about me and it’s not safe. Like if some people were to read certain blogs they would instantly know it’s about them. I don’t want them to see the blogs and I need to stop. I love this so much and I might my own blog page but it will never be like this again. I will not tell anyone on my blog about my thoughts but I will simply tell them about my day. I was stupid to tell anyone at all that I have this and in the moment I told the first person everything started falling. I couldn’t tell as much because I would lose really close friends again and I can’t lose some of them. If I ever finish my website I will tell yall about it but I don’t think I’m going to be on this site for much longer.

So let me just update yall on my life because I haven’t done that in a while. Where do I begin? Well I can start with the fact that me and my family are fully talking again. Nobody is fighting or anything and it’s peaceful for now. About a month ago someone told me that they believe that my family is different inside closed doors because we are so nice and cool in public. I don’t know why but I remember the entire conversation and it always comes back to me. I wish I could have that conversation with them again but I don’t like bringing up past conversations to people. There really isn’t much to tell yall about myself anymore. I stopped doing the things I used to do and I sit in my room a lot. I have literally just a half of day of school left and that’s because of my final exam. I need to study for it during the next two days.

So today I had church. Honestly, today’s service moved me. It opened my eyes beyond belief and I want to talk to someone about it but I can’t. All I can say is it put me in deep thoughts and honestly I needed to hear it.

Look at me. Look at how the literature that I write cannot compare to the ones of my past blogs. I just can’t write like my old self. I can’t write because someone will read this and they will get mad at me because I said something about them. So yea, I can’t say my thoughts. I never can anymore.

Well, this is about all for today. I will keep yall updated as I continue with my journey through life.

One thought on “And i’m gone again”

  1. If you wish to still write your thoughts without people being aware of who you truly are, perhaps you can make a second account, tell the people about your day here and then your thoughts anonymously on another? Just a suggestion.

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