Hey, it’s Imtoorandom again. Yes, I’m here to complain. But really this post is actually going to be something for me. I don’t expect any kind of feedback from this, but I thought the first step would be to admit my insecurities to the world and that will slowly help me get on the path to overcoming them.
Im 15 years old, almost 16, and extremely short. Now this doesn’t seem like too bad of a thing, because there are tons of people who are short. But I’m just tired of it. Most of the time people see me and their first reaction is, “Aww your cute.” And I can’t help but feel slightly comparable to a small little puppy, immature. I know they don’t mean it as an insult, yet I think about it too much and it become one. The next thing about my height added with my extremely skinny self and baby face is that people tend to think I’m younger than I actually am.
See that one in the front? The one that is drinking the hell out of some soda? Well that’s me. Most people look at me and think, “Wow your in high school?” Before adding, “I thought you were still 12.” I’m tired of hearing it. I’m tired of hearing that, “I could pass for a 6th grader.” I’m tired of being called a “little kid” by people my own age.
I’m just tired of living in my body.
Im an actress, or at least I really enjoy acting in theatre, and it really sucks when your teacher won’t give you a part in the play because “You look too young.” It’s actually just exhausting, and is making me loose all hope. There is no chance I’ll be growing anymore, and I don’t seem to be getting any less baby faced, so why do I keep on worrying about it?
I can’t control how I look, so I shouldn’t beat myself up about it, but I do. A lot.