How could anyone else disappoint you, when you’re disappointed by you already? I don’t know how to overcome that but I do know that it’s overcoming me. It snatches many opportunities everyday from me and I just can’t stop it cause it’s right. I not even speak for my self. It should be this way I guess cause it’s me. Not only opportunities but my confidence specially self confidence, hopes, happiness everything is ruined now. And most of all I’ve become numb, can’t feel happiness anymore in whatever I do like whatever.
To justify everything in my life I got one justification that it’s life and it’s me who deserve to be treated like a loser!