I know I’ll drown because I’m not making any efforts. And it’s just haunting me every single second. Fear to face myself is much more horrible rather than facing others.
Now, I feel tried to keep myself too much busy so that I couldn’t face myself. I feel everyone’s eyes making fun of me when I go out but this time these are my eyes which are reminding me how big loser I’m!!
To escape all this all I do depend on is sleep! And I’ve been sleeping more than 18 hours in a day. But this is not a good idea anymore. Sigh…Make me strong Allah. Ameen!