So, I got high today by sniffing sharpies. It was not fun. Honestly I did it just to know what it was like getting high. I now have a very big headache.
But overall today was shit. Last night I tried strangling myself to death because I hate myself so much. I was so close, I felt dizzy and everything was slowly getting darker by the second but I don’t know what happened. My hands loosened from around my neck and I just sat up gasping for air. I wish it worked because today all I wanted to do was drink bleach, and death was again on my mind like always.