As I start a new chapter of my life, I will start by telling you how I will live my life to the world where I was meant to live. I could never accomplish the things that come my way when it comes to opening my heart to people. I don’t like to talk about how I am all the time because when I let out my feelings; people start to feel sorry for me and it makes me feel a little uncomfortable when they cry.
Because letting out my true feelings on how I was judged and criticized when I was bullied; would just make things worse. I don’t like to talk about my past because my whole life has been a complete disaster. Everyone gets bullied. Ain’t nobody perfect. When I came home from school; I just go in my room and cry for hours. Nobody could hear me because I put the stereo loud.
I don’t even like writing about my life and here I am doing it now. I could never become what I’ve been dreaming of what I want to become. I wanna be all that I can be. A good person with the biggest heart to change people’s lives.
When I write about something, I just think of all the things that I’m never gonna have; again. I’m never gonna have a normal childhood again because I’m all grown up and there’s no turning back time to change the past.
Being depressed and contemplating the past will change nothing. Use it as experienced past. Take from it what you will then leave it behind. It’s a waste of energy and life to live in it. Live in today, prepare for tomorrow.
I’m going to start living my life for me and nobody else I am so done with the bullshit, being mistreated, lied to and hurt all the time.. It’s time to start doing me again and living my life to the fullest ..😔💔💯