Last night was my first night at work. I didn’t actually work but going through my orientation classes. It was long and boring but I’m getting paid so that’s all that matters! It’s going to be hard for me to get use to these overnight hours but I know I can do it. I’m actually excited to actually get out on the line and start working. I know it’s going to be hard, sweaty, physical work but it’s a paycheck so again that’s all that matters. I’m not looking forward to the sore achy body that comes with the first few weeks of this job, but in the end it’s going to make me a stronger person both physically and mentally.
Another perk of a physically demanding job is getting into better shape. I’ve been trying to do this for awhile now but will admit it’s been a struggle. I have physical limitations that have hindered my progress but with this job I will have to push pass them and have no choice but to accept the challenge.
I know Master will be proud of my accomplishments, both working and getting into better shape. He accepts me for who I am now which is wonderful, but I’m sure having a sexy in shape sub will please him even more 😁. I’m also wanting this for myself, to look good and feel good. I miss having the body I once had and the energy that came with it. I want the confidence I had and the feeling of being proud of myself back. I know I’m a strong and confident woman now but there’s always that insecurity hidden deep inside. I want to always feel beautiful and sexy, not disgusted and ashamed.
In short I am doing this job for the money but also for the confidence I know I will gain from it. I’m doing it for me, but if it also gives Master pleasure then that’s just a bonus.