Yesterday and today I have taken some big steps in my relationship with my Master. I have stripped down and bared all to him, even though I was worried and nervous of what he might think I did it anyway. He is such a wonderful man, accepting me for who I am, flaws and all. I knew it was a step that needed to be taken, this relationship is based on trust, honesty, and being completely open and unashamed. He makes me feel beautiful, sexy, and owned.
We also took a big step in my obedience today, he ordered me to do things I never done before, to experience things I never thought I’d ever do, things I would’ve never thought to do. The feelings and sensations are a mix of pure delight to slightly painful, I enjoy both but for obvious reasons prefer the pleasurable sensations.
I even went out in public with these hidden pleasures and pain, it was a very exciting, naughty, and incredible feeling knowing I was roped and plugged and no one knew except me and Master. It was an extremely arousing thing to do, I never would have thought I would do something like that.
As I type this Master has given me more instructions to follow, I have obeyed and it is an amazing feeling. I love pleasing him and fulfilling his wants and desires. It seems as if I relationship has taking a major leap and that excites me, thrills me, makes me nervous, and makes me anxious all at once. I am so glad we have finally gotten to this stage in our relationship, I’ve yearned for this for a very long time.
I know he wants to own and control me completely, I want that too. I know it’s going to take some time to get to that point but I know it will eventually happen. He is what I’ve wanted and looked for, he is my Master!