Had an unexplainable experience today.  Had to go out and forgot my ball hat.  The son wanted a bottle of pop and I told my husband that I didn’t want to go into the store since I didn’t have my hat.  Not that it really bothers me or I am ashamed of how I look I just didn’t want the unwelcomed stares.  He went into the store for the pop.  Then we went through McDonald’s drive-thru.  Dog was in back seat, husband was driving and I was in passenger seat.  He got up to the window to pay and he knew the girl who was collecting the money from years of going there.  Now I know she is a special needs person yet she must have the mental capability to accurately take and record orders and collect money and make change.  I wasn’t paying any attention to her until I heard her say to my husband oh your wife has cancer.  I don’t know why this bothered me except  that maybe it was because I wasn’t in control of the situation.  I don’t know.  See guys I’m not as strong as everyone thinks I am.  Oh well.  It’s not the end of the world it just bothered me for some reason.  Maybe because deep down I am worried a little about the upcoming scan and her comment put things back in my face.  By the way the hair is starting to grow back.  Baby fuzz as I call it.  Wonder how long it takes.

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  1. It is perfectly natural to feel sensitive when attention is drawn to you, of any kind. You are still brave in my eyes, far more so than I could ever be. I bet your hair will grow back in so lovely. That will be a good day, yes? Hugs to you.

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