From today onwards I am going to be a stone cold bitch. I don’t understand why my dysfunctional family don’t see what I do. Why they constantly put down their own family members and continue to act in this self-destructing manner.
In my eyes and their own indirect words I was their biggest mistake and I don’t think that’ll ever leave my subconscious. Well done me, accident baby = mum can’t work any more, childcare costs means no new house and let’s face it my siblings now have to share what little love my parents gave them. I honestly don’t think I’ve ever heard my parents tell me they love me.
Another thing. No one in this family apologises. Ever. Ever.
Maybe I’m in a bad mood due to lack of sleep or maybe my late night thinking about my lack of belief in GOD is haunting me. Who knows? One thing I know for sure is that after dinner I am a solitary creature and I won’t make time for anyone who can’t for me.