I’ve decided to finally stop caring

From today onwards I am going to be a stone cold bitch. I don’t understand why my dysfunctional family don’t see what I do. Why they constantly put down their own family members and continue to act in this self-destructing manner. 

In my eyes and their own indirect words I was their biggest mistake and I don’t think that’ll ever leave my subconscious. Well done me, accident baby = mum can’t work any more, childcare costs means no new house and let’s face it my siblings now have to share what little love my parents gave them. I honestly don’t think I’ve ever heard my parents tell me they love me. 

Another thing. No one in this family apologises. Ever. Ever.

Maybe I’m in a bad mood due to lack of sleep or maybe my late night thinking about my lack of belief in GOD is haunting me. Who knows? One thing I know for sure is that after dinner I am a solitary creature and I won’t make time for anyone who can’t for me. 

2 thoughts on “I’ve decided to finally stop caring”

  1. I was a surprise baby, too. It does leave you with a little “OOPs” feeling when you find out. Things will be better with your parents when you get out of the teenage years; it just does. Why are you haunted by a lack of belief in God? That’s easy to cure! He believes in you. He loves you. There is a verse “If my father and my mother forsake me, the Lord will take me up.” Let Him become your Parent. He adores you. Talk to Him. Don’t be afraid to believe. Best wishes……and hugs.

  2. This really reaches out to me in certain aspects. My family is also dysfunctional in their own manners, my family doesn’t say sorry either. I don’t know you but believe me I love you. my 23 year old heart hears all 23 years of crying. promise.

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