I can’t stand to see the person I’ve become, I was never this person before. It’s tearing me apart. I was so different before. I had no care in the world for what people thought about me, but now that’s all I think about. My mom and I fight everyday, like its a planned thing. It was never like this. It gets terrible. Before, I couldn’t even imagine talking back to her let alone getting into arguments with her. This person I’ve become is not someone you would want around. All I think about is how much I hate myself. The hatred I have against my own body is outrageous. I don’t even think I know what self-love is anymore. Right now my thoughts are all over the place, and are probably making no sense, but I’m falling apart. I feel my world crumbling around me. I feel like such a shitty person, and I shouldn’t feel that way about myself, but I can’t help it. I feel myself slipping back into a dark place, and I can’t help but think this downward spiral is only going to continue.