Ive decided to continue on with this Journal thing, it felt nice to type out stuff so I’m gonna do it again! Today was not very exciting. My and J texted for a little while before work, the guy that asked her out got rejected which was nice. When I got to work I was only there for 2 hours. The resturant was kind of dead and I was tired so I went home. I got almost all of my computer work done so I can move over into being a server soon, I’ll have it done very soon. Tomorrow J and I are going to the city to go Shopping for stuff for her dorm and for clothes for me. Im really excited to hang out with her, I havent really had any 1 on 1 time with her since her friend showed up at the ice cream place. I wonder if that was coincidence or if she did it on purpose? Idk. I hope tomorrow its just us but I have no idea, I really really hope its just us. When I think about her its weird, because like I really enjoy spending time with her and I could see us being in a relationship but she’s going off to school soon and I’m kind of a huge amount of emotional baggage. I am affraid of trying to get into a relationship because my last two were very, not great. My first girlfriend left me and is now a very succesful cam girl and the one after that was just using me as a boy toy while her real boyfriend was oversea’s. I dont want to ruin the friendship I have with J, but I also don’t want to stick her with my baggage and I dont want her to get hurt eventually. I’m afraid I’ll mess up something and it will be over. Anyway, tomorrow night I’ll definitly write more about how the trip to the city went and all that. Thanks for reading. Goodnight folks!