I’ve been busy this cloudy gloomy humid Sunday. Woke up early this morning and masturbated, but wasn’t able to orgasm. I’ve been wanting to touch myself for days now but never really had the chance until this morning. I also wasn’t sure if Master would allow me to but I asked him last night and he said yes, I’m just not allowed to cum unless he gives me permission. So since I woke up early I took advantage of my alone time.
I woukd’ve preferred to have been having sex with Master but the long distance makes that impossible ugh. So I just imagined it he was controlling my rabbit, giving me the much needed and wanted pleasure I desired. It wasn’t the full satisfying desire I know I would’ve had if I was actually with Master, but something is better than nothing at all. I know he would’ve done so many more things to me than I was capable of by myself. Maybe one day it will happen.
It was so hard to control myself once I got into it. I wanted to orgasm so badly and not just once! I could’ve done it several times 😈. I came so close to exploding, I wasn’t sure I was going to be able to stop myself but I did. I could’ve went ahead and done it and just lied to Master but that’s not the type of person I am. I would feel so guilty if I lied to him, especially since he has been so kind and understanding with me. I’m sure sometime soon he will allow me to cum, but until then I will do my best to obey and if by chance I slip and can’t control myself I will own up to it and tell him.
The rest of my day has been devoted to cleaning my house and doing laundry. I also have school to do, I have a few assignments I gotta get turned in by Tuesday ugh. I’ll get them done, hopefully today but if not definitely by tomorrow. So the rest of the day will be to work on school and relaxing. Hopefully talking to Master as well but I know he has other obligations to deal with and will talk with me when he has the opportunity.