My surgery was on the 14th I am tired of being tired. I Am waiting to hear if I am being placed in a at home care program or a facility in the hospital. I am hoping that I will remain in the hospital but then I want to see if I can keep it together at home. I’m telling you the mental games that you put yourself through is insane. Today I woke up determined. I used the restroom. Sat upright in a chair for a while. At that moment it seemed like everyone showed up. Drs, family, friend, pt, clinical trial rep, on top of all the nursing check in. I guess it was to much. After lunch my body went into this numb feeling flushed state and I fell asleep. Is it just panic attacks? Im I the only one that jumps from one emotion (I can do this) to another (I can’t) every five seconds? I have been trying meditation as I lay here hoping it will help center my thoughts.
I'm 31 and was told on 6/9/16 that I have a brain tumor. I am using this to help sort through my thoughts as they hit and garentee that most days you will get whiplash trying to keep up. I will not hold back and there my be days I might scare someone its what I need to stay stable even when I seem to be falling apart.