Fear of Anger

My therapist asked me “what is your angry side like?” I calmly replied with a nervous smile “..i don’t know…doesn’t reveal much about itself and you don’t want to know…” That’s why i was so afraid of it for a long time. Ever since i was a kid, i knew there was something odd about me. More disturbing than most kids who had angry outbursts. My anger was very unpredictable and calculating. Outbursts happen when the moment is right. You can provoke the angry personality within me and expect it to be unleashed, but instead it says “…i’ll deal with you later…” meanwhile anger builds up. The deeper i fall into anger, the more this side of myself manifests itself physically. I suppose i didn’t take the time to understand it when i should have.


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