July 26, 2016

Since Uni has been closed I’m stuck at home doing chores. I applied for a job where I passed the interview and tests but was declined the opportunity since Uni will start two months from now. I can’t go out with friends regularly, once every few months and I can’t travel to go anywhere alone. It sucks to be home alone all day with no one to talk to, caged by four walls. I haven’t much friends and even they aren’t that entertaining. It’s like my life is at a standstill with me, myself and I. Yeah there’s social media but even that is boring. I just want to go somewhere, go on a vacation, live a little. This has been my life every year when there’s a break in my academic life. Honestly, that’s all I have, my academic life. My social life sucks as I’ve mentioned before not much meeting with friends so friends are totally out. I haven’t any love life either. The people I seem to like either don’t like me or just use me and somehow, I’m the girl that guys think that already have a significant other. But really and truly, I’m single as a pringle. lol. I don’t find interest in much guys anymore. It seems like a waste of time. I’m not attracted to them unless I see that they’ve got good character and a sense of humour, which is rare in my opinion. And I am getting older, I’m constantly being asked “when I’m going to get married”. Oh well, I can’t do anything about that. My family isn’t of any help either. My cousins aren’t close to us since my cousin died. My brothers are either at lessons or work. I live with my mom. And she’d be at work also. My dad lives with grandmom, and she does not like me at all. I therefore avoid going there because of constant nagging by her. So, no family there. I guess I really do need a life as they say… I’m as boring as it gets. Sigh, I guess it is affecting me being at home alone for a few months without much human contact. I just wish there was something more to my life, a little adventure, someone special, anything…. 🙁 I realised that people my age have a more exciting and better life even if it’s filled with drama. That’s all for now.

2 thoughts on “July 26, 2016”

  1. I love your “name” White Daffodil. So poetic. I bet you write poetry, or could. Being home alone is not the best situation. But if you like to read and write, you have the solitude to do both, also the time. That could be a great blessing. Being alone also gives you time to get to know God better and discover that He’s your best friend, always faithful. I hope you do discover how much He loves you. Best wishes, my friend.

  2. Thank you. I do write poems but recently I’ve lost the touch. I actually have used the time to find GOD and it did help. However, I continuously go back to that state again. Thank you for your advice, I do appreciate it

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