Day 3 – What do you need

What do you need? 

This is a loaded question, people think they need a lot of things. The biggest house, the nicest car, the newest Michael kors bag. Although I’m not going to sit here and pretend I don’t like nice things, I very much do, but those are wants. I want to live in a nice home, I want to have a nice car etc. Those things make life a little easier but you can be happy without them. The question of what do I need? I need things from myself and from others and, Well, I like to think what I need is simple…

I need to learn to trust myself, I need to gain back my confidence that I can make the right choice for me. After continuously making wrong choices you start to lose trust in yourself. You start to believe you will always choose wrong.

I need to figure out what I want from life, what are my goals? How do I accomplish them? 

I need to be less trusting, I try to trust people until they give me a reason not to but when my trust is betrayed it hurts a little more each time. 

The things I need from others I have always had a hard time obtaining and I often wonder if there’s something I’m doing that is causing it. I need honesty, I would much rather have my heart broken with the truth then live a lie. The lie is so damaging when discovered and there’s nothing worse than knowing you weren’t worth the truth. 

I need kindness and compassion without being a push over, so many people will just keep yessing you because they think it’s what you want to hear. 

I need attention…since I am trying to be honest to a fault in these entries I will say I crave attention from men. If I’m not getting enough I will go elsewhere to get it.

I need to learn how to love myself to the point where I am enough. 

I need to love myself with the same intensity that I have loved the wrong people in the past. I need to see myself through other people’s eyes. 

I need to remember that although times seem tough there are people who would pray to have my bad days and that as long as I take it one day at a time I can get through anything. 

*Time discovers all truth*

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