Engagements. Weddings. Engagements. Weddings.
If you would have asked me at 20 where I would be at 33, I would have said accomplished and married with kids. Who knew that at 33 I would be in a relationship with no kids … accomplished… but not married with no kids. Those words. Those words hit me like a ton of bricks. Part of me wonders why I want it so much. What happens after that. But I think for me it is a confirmation that I am worth it. Its one thing to know that you are worth it to yourself but the person that you look in the face everyday should show you that you are. A ring symbolizes that. A ring says hell or high water I love this person. But then again, most marriages end up in divorce so what does a ring really mean besides now it takes money to get out. Money. Time. Lawyers. Agreements. Hmph.
Maybe I am in love with the idea of marriage. Maybe I am not married because I am missing something that God wants me to realize and pay attention to. Maybe I just want to say that I am engaged and that I am going to be married.
Until next time…………….