I have been lost since I lost my soulmate on April 23,2016. Life is nothing to me without her. I failed her miserably and did not protect her like a man should and I overdosed on pills to take my own life. We got into a fight and she left and I have not seen her since. It’s been the hardest time I have ever had and trying to cope with her being gone has taken away my willingness to survive. I have attempted suicide twice since she’s been gone and all I feel is nothing but regret and sadness every day. I wonder if she misses me. I am confused and can’t believe she is gone. We used to share dreams together and we are both empathic we could take away our physical pain just by touch. I never thought we would be apart and I only have the memories of what we had. I’m so lost sometimes I feel like I can’t do anything. I feel like a failure and don’t like to be around anyone I just feel alone and I know I’ll never forgive myself for losing the most beautiful girl I have ever known. My days are filled with remorse and I miss her so much. If I could only turn back time and start again I would do things right but I know I can’t. I love you Christina. I pray every night for you and hope your safe. Love, Jason.