Journal Entry #21 (You win one, you lose one)

Hi, it’s Missy with both good and bad news. Which do you want first?

I’ll just go with the bad news. I broke up with my online “girlfriend” last night. The reason? I didn’t love her anymore. It’s hard to stay in love with someone you’ve never even seen in real life before. I don’t think she took the “breakup” too well. She tends to overreact sometimes. That’s why I was afraid to tell her but I had to. I couldn’t live a lie any longer. She hasn’t spoken to me since this morning but it isn’t anything to be worried about yet. She probably needs some alone time. I hope our friends are there for her.

As for the good news, I made a new online friend a few days ago. We’re already best friends. She makes me laugh a lot and she is very easy to talk to. I’m genuinely surprised at that because everytime I try to converse with someone, it always ends quickly because I can’t think of anything to say. She asks me a lot of questions which I like because it’s easier to answer than to come up with them. Very different than from my “ex” in which she demanded I come up with questions to ask her, otherwise we wouldn’t really converse. Also I will name this new friend “Mindy” until further notice.

Today has been boring. None of my friends have really talked to me, including Mindy. It also seems that every chat I post in freezes for a bit after I post. Then someone will bypass my comment, as if I hadn’t posted in the first place. As I hope I’ve mentioned before, I hate being ignored. It’s one of my biggest pet peeves. I hope things get better tomorrow. I hope I can talk to Mindy some more tomorrow. I’m so bored. It seems that no matter how many friends I have, I always find myself alone. But this time, it’s partly my fault.

 There’s no rest for the bored and lonely, so I’ve gotta go.

One thought on “Journal Entry #21 (You win one, you lose one)”

  1. I don’t want to sound religious, because I’m not “religious” like some people and don’t want to be confused with them. I just love and adore my savior Jesus. I want to suggest that you reach out to him, and make him your best Friend. Because he says, “Lo, I am with you always.” he will never forget you or ignore you. Because he is God, he can hear all the prayers in the world, and not miss a bit. He understands you and loves you already. Then you will have a forever friend, and your earthly friends, too, to enjoy. I hope Mindy calls you soon (or texts). Bless you.

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