What do you do when you really just want to be alone? You are not exactly happy, but not entirely unhappy with your life. What can you do if you feel like your kid is not your kid and you just feel disconnected from them, you wish that you could simply forget they are yours. How awful to feel this way, how awful to think this thought 🙁 But it seems that your child does not want you either, you are ashamed by who they are knowing that your influence is just not there that they are not like you at all. that they get fed things that have turned them completely against you. Really hate feeling this way, but it feels better when said child is not around. Hate this. Hate having all of this around me, just want to be alone and forget there was a life before. Forget everything, just start fresh and be someone else.