so today as i was arranging my stuff in my room,i see in the corner of my eye a insect. I yelp out of surprise and see it scurry to a bag im unpacking. I go over and tell my dad and he says to not worry about it and to go back to unpacking. I bother him about it until he gets up to go kill it. If i didnt bother my lazy dad, i most likely wouldve gotten bit by the wolf spider. I went over to my dad’s friends house and chilled there for a bit. When we got home my arm started hurting, the usual lol. Nothing new happened today. Today was one of those weak days i guess :/ i went to the bathroom to change into my pjs and see these red, idek, stretchmarks? On my hip. I never noticed them. I started looking at myself in the mirror and started shaming myself. How i have these ugly marks on my body with no figure to show why. These fat rolls on the side of my upper body. These fat ugly thighs, this flat shape.i could name many more things but i dont wanna drag this entry. I hate it. I started crying and my dad started bugging about this dumb app. Luckily i didnt go to far as to start sobbing or he wouldve bothered me even more. I wanted to talk to my SO, maybe he’d make me feel better, but like usual, its night so ofcourse hes not gonna reply. Its okay though, im used to no one having time for me.