Mom’s Birthday

Today is my mom’s birthday. I need to call her. I haven’t talked to her in years and seen her in the same amount of time. Its hard. It started when I was married, my ex-husband didn’t really want to travel back to my hometown to visit. He wanted to spend holidays and such with his family. I get that, but I need my family too. Especially now, that I feel I have no one. Now, that we are divorced, it is more that I feel guilty because I am unable to take care of her and my aunts make me feel like sh*t for that, it is easier to not deal with that. I think they thought once I got divorced, I’d move back home and take care of her. She needs 24/7 care, and I just can’t do that. I have to support myself and my son.  I feel like such a sh*tty person for it. If she were with me, she’d have to be in a home. I cannot afford to take care of her, my son and myself.

2 thoughts on “Mom’s Birthday”

  1. You only get one mother in life. I’m sure you calling and just making a little bit of effort to see her now and again would be enough. I’m sure all she wants to know is that you care. Its understandable that you must put your own wellbeing and child first. Don’t let anybody guilt trip you to the point you cant have a relationship with your own mother. Don’t let it get to the point that its too late. Guilt is so much worse when you cant change it. Call her x

  2. Thanks for the thoughts. I didn’t call. I did pick up a card and sent it to her in the mail and wrote her a long letter. I’m ashamed of myself. Hope you are well.

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