Today is my mom’s birthday. I need to call her. I haven’t talked to her in years and seen her in the same amount of time. Its hard. It started when I was married, my ex-husband didn’t really want to travel back to my hometown to visit. He wanted to spend holidays and such with his family. I get that, but I need my family too. Especially now, that I feel I have no one. Now, that we are divorced, it is more that I feel guilty because I am unable to take care of her and my aunts make me feel like sh*t for that, it is easier to not deal with that. I think they thought once I got divorced, I’d move back home and take care of her. She needs 24/7 care, and I just can’t do that. I have to support myself and my son. I feel like such a sh*tty person for it. If she were with me, she’d have to be in a home. I cannot afford to take care of her, my son and myself.