What’s your intention for this week?
My intention for this week is to work on myself, I want to focus on my therapy, making decisions that will better my self worth and not diminish it. For example, This past weekend I saw the man that recently broke my heart. T texted me and wanted to talk, I ignored the message but then finally realized I wanted to hear what he had to say. I let him come over, we talked, we fought, cried, laughed. Unfortunately I slept with him, I don’t know what it is about him that makes me so stupid. The way he tells the situation he is in, he is not with the woman he lives with and they have separate rooms however when I asked to visit him there he didn’t say yes.
To me, if you cannot freely visit the home of your man than he is not your man…I have made a choice not to spend time with him until he changes his situation. He can tell me until he’s blue in the face that he isn’t sleeping with her but there is clearly gray area in their relationship if he can’t have another woman over. I want someone who is going to give me 100% because I deserve that. Everyone deserves that… He asked me to wait for him to figure it out, not to see other people and I said I wouldn’t promise that. I want him to leave his current situation not because he gets me if he does but because it truly doesn’t make him happy. I don’t want to be the reason he leaves. Honestly, even if he does leave could we ever be together? I’m not sure but I do know that I can’t sacrifice my dignity for him any longer.
Anyways, the point of that story was that my intentions this week are to love myself more than I did last week and it will be my intention every week to do better than the week before it. I have to start making choices for the life I want not the life I have…I am worth so much and give so much that I deserve to have those things in return. I tend to make decisions based on my feelings at the time and it is often detrimental to my growth as a person and my well being. My intentions this week are to work on me, go out on a date or two, focus on friends. I want to put my attention into things that nourish my soul, and I want to start today.
*You owe yourself the love you so freely give everyone else*